cheryl58's Cancer Blog
June 17, 2008
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I can’t tell you how angry I am, just came from the Dr.’s he had my CT results. Well guess what they were not good…...The tumor’s in my lung yes I said tumor’s there are more then one now. Any how they have grown, some not much but some. I have been on so much chemo and drugs and they are still there whats up with that. Today I just fill like throwing in the towel I feel like I am fighting a loosing battle. I have been doing everything I can think of to beat this and nothing seems to be working. Today I am asking WHY.
Thanks for your support -
Gosh I am so sorry to hear about this latest battle for you. I know you have to be highly upset as I would be also. Don’t throw in the towel you have fought this far so keep on fighting. I know how horrible the femara can be and if you can tolerate that then you can push forward with all this. I will pray for you tonight that this all turns out ok. You are in my thoughts and prayers…Hang in there and here is a big HUG
I am sorry. you are not alone, although it feels like it a lot of time.
You are courageous and strong and you can choose what you want.
Be angry….you have the right to be…..just don’t stay there long.
there is always hope.
i want to share my free book with you to give you hope. you can email me at sheila@sheilaulrich.com
So many days, I feel the same. Can’t IT get better. I go throught pain trying to make it better but still nothing or it is even worse. Will there ever be a cure!
Cheryl,
I totally understand. I quit chemo a year ago because it quit working and was making me wish I was already dead. Funny thing is once I stopped chemo it still kept growing in the lung and liver but much slower than when I was on chemo.
If you want to talk, email me donnarichno@yahoo.com most people will tell you to stay with it but I can totally relate to how you feel. I did everything the doctors said and even a clinical trial nothing stopped the monster from coming back and growing.
Have you asked the doctor if their are any other chemo drugs to try? Chemo drugs only work for so long then the cancer becomes immune to them.
The last year I have actually been living, something I had not done since being diagnosed in 2005. So have a heart to heart with your doctor if you can trust him and not feel like it’s all about the money for them.
Donna
Don’t throw in the towel. We are here to fight this with you. I am so sorry for the bad news.
If you just want to cry for a minute, go ahead. I wish Jill would install hug software, then we could gather around you, maybe prayer software too, I mean, while you are upgrading…
Please don’t give up. Maybe look at the fight in smaller steps, but please don’t give up!
I am praying for you.
Hugz
Mac
Cheryl I have 12 tumors in my lungs and 2 in my arorda (sp?) and I am going to try Erbitux. Maybe ask your Dr. about this. It has helped alot of people that I know by frying those dam tumors!